Tears are falling hearts are breaking1/18/2024 Not everyone is receptive to hearing this kind of suggestion though. If your friend is willing to consider this option, you could offer to help her so she doesn't feel overwhelmed at the prospect of finding a good therapist on her own.įrom your post I wasn't sure if you had told her that she might suffering from depression and that it might account for her mood. You might have already encouraged your friend to see a therapist. And that's the reality - we don't have any control over how others feel. Hi Lashon, I can imagine how hard this is.to see a friend go through mood swings and not have any control over it. I don't know what's wrong because nothing traumatic of stressful has been going on. I've been alone every step of the way and I'm so tired of shoving my feelings aside. I would like to consider myself as in recovery, but I still have a low self-esteem and I don't want to go into remission even though it seems so easy. I can't cry, and it's been so many months that it's scary. I wore a lot of black but I put on a good show and my friends thought I was the happiest girl on earth. I used to self-injure but then I found out that it didn't work for me, so I have all this anger, frustration, and sadness bottled up inside me all the time and my parents constantly have this impression that I'm really bratty and irritable, but I can't explain and I feel alone. I don't think my symptoms are as serious as clinical depression, so I'm guessing I have dysthymic symptoms? Anyway, I'm only 15 and I'm way too scared to go to anyone about these issues. I don't know how long I've been depressed, but I know things have been like this for at least 5 months now. Don't I deserve to feel good, without my nervous system being constantly revved, for once in my life before I die? (Oh, and to top it all off, I find that I am a right-brained person, and I fit the criteria for "Highly Sensitive People.")Ĭan you detect my level of desperation, ShrinkLady? Please tell me that there is still hope for me. Can a person like me learn how to find joy in life? People will say to me, "Well, you're a MENSA member.surely you can figure out how to 'get over' all your depression and grief.Just 'DO IT,' like the Nike commercial says." I want to scream in their faces.Īll I've ever done for years is go to therapy, read hundreds of books, journal, practice cognitive therapy.to the point that I'm tired of trying. Is it a surprise that I feel utterly and completely alone in the world? What are triggers and why do they happen?Īnd my biggest question is this: I've spent a long time today reading your information here, and it has helped me immeasurably, but is there any hope for someone like me? I've merely survived, not thrived. I never heard that I was loved, that I was special, that I was wanted. Growing up I cannot recall one kind word from either parent. Very, very tired of continuing to live through all the sadness of my life. I am "triggered" very things I see or hear, by sounds, by cars backfiring, doors slamming.hearing a child crying.all of these bring flashbacks which leave me feeling terrified and sobbing. What does a person like me do? I mean, all of this started for me years and years ago, probably preverbally. I think my body is totally worn and exhausted, probably have adrenal fatigue among many other physical maladies. I just didn't want to hurt every day or be tormented each and every day. Is that possible? I learned to dissociate as a child in order to cope with severe abuse, but I often didn't want to continue living, even when I was a young girl. I often believe that I have been depressed all of my life. I have cried a lot these past three years due to my once-frozen grief coming to the surface as I worked through memories of severe child abuse, including rejection, neglect, and abandonment. This has been very distressing and frustrating for me. I'm the same way with family and friends - I might tear up when sad, but that's as far as it goes.Īny insight would be greatly appreciated. I trust my therapist with my feelings, I have no problem being vulnerable with him, so I can't understand what is holding me back. I feel a sense of heaviness, like this unexpressed grief is always there, but my tears have been frozen for a long time. Many times in session the tears have been just below the surface, but something always stops them. Yet I feel like an aspect of this work is missing - I've never shed a tear or grieved over the loss of love, sense of self worth, identity, and almost my life, several times over. We've worked through many intense, horrifying issues from my past, and I've come to a place of healing and forgiveness for the people involved. I have been seeing the same kind, caring therapist for six years. Thanks so much for your article on "Tears".
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